This means more to me than I have ever realized. I have had several jobs, several hobbies, done several different things. I have been desperately trying to not only find something I have a passion for but find my true self as well. It’s been taxing and very hard. After being in the military I thought I had found my style. Unfortunately I had not and it took me several years to wake up and realize the country scene was not what I liked or wanted. It was what I had grown accustomed to being stationed in the middle of hickville.
When I woke up one morning and realized that I had been stuck in a haze it was the most refreshing and awakening feeling ever. I replaced a good deal of our country items with contemporary simple things instead. I began to see everything clearer. Realizing that I had found my passion in photography and writing was fantastic… realizing I needed to find myself was overwhelming. Just as I started piecing parts of me together I find a job contracting for a photography company. It starts out great… until I find myself lost yet again.
Starting our D/s dynamic also has started to clear the fog. I find myself calmer on most occasions. At ease. Again things are becoming clearer. I’m pulling myself out of the heavy fog that has consumed me. I’m finding my style within my passion again. I’m finding myself within my dynamic with Sir. I’m finding the person that has been broken, shattered, torn, ripped apart, stepped and walked over. It hard, painful, and taxing to put the pieces back together. But with the help of a select group of friends and Sir… I am finally finding a way to heal. I am finding the passion not only within my job but within myself.
It’s been a busy crazy weekend and the week is going to follow. Bridal/ day after session today, portraits tomorrow, editing all week, business work fit in there, and a wedding on Friday. One of my hardest things is making time for myself and for Sir. We get so busy we don’t schedule anytime for each other. So this week we are going to make sure that there is time for us everyday. We are going to make sure we get to the gym every morning, eat right, and spend sometime together talking and playing 😋😜 when we get home. This week is going to be great!
So… Sir and I were supposed to start the morning off with a maternity session. Well we tried but it was so hot that my poor prego mamma was beading so much sweat she was uncomfortable. It’s ridiculous hot dang hot it was because of the humidity at 9 a.m. So we rescheduled. I’m sad and I’m glad. She would have died and I really wanted her to be comfortable. You would be surprised what the camera can pick up. Anyway… Sir and I are finally home and we are staying there! Only place to stay cool when you roast the minute you walk out your front door shade or not. I don’t mind sweating… But let’s all admit we want to sweat because of other fun, kinky, activities… not the weather. 😋😜
Hope everyone stays cool today! Happy Saturday!
Yay!!! \😄/! It’s Friday. Put on your dancing shoes, your high heels, boots, dress shoes, comfy shoes, or bare feet and dance your way through the day. You have one more day of work and then a weekend of freedom. Do something fun. Go dancing, meet people, have a date, plan a sexy fun evening for you and your spouse without the kiddos (sleep overs are always fun 😜).
Sir and I have a very busy weekend ahead but I will dance through it and have a blast doing it. We pick up my computer from the “hospital” tonight and we are getting more memory for it, we have a maternity shoot tomorrow morn and head shots for Sir after, and a wedding on Sunday. See busy busy, but we will have time for ourselves even though we will be working straight through!
Working on my new positive mind set! How am I doing so far? How are you?
So last week was absolutely terrible. From the beginning to the end. To put the nuts and toppings on my week my computer decided to just up and stop working. It’s been very hard to not continue to freak out about it. I made a jump decision to buy a replacement as well as a laptop. The replacement sat in the box untouched for a week while my computer was at the store being diagnosed. Because it was taking so long I really was losing hope that it was only the graphics card. Then after talking to my friend about positive thinking I chose once again to try thinking and visualizing positively instead of negatively. I said outloud that the computer would be fixed easily and nothing else was wrong with it. I visualized the store calling me and telling me just that. Within an hour the store called. The only things they added that needed to be fixed was the hard drive fan (it’s cheap so it doesn’t count) and the LCD screen (which doesn’t need to actually be replaced). So everything went just the way I visualized it to go.
It’s amazing how powerful your thoughts can be. They can tear you down, ruin your day, increase negative energy, and make you feel horrible. If you think the other way though… even though it may be hard or you may feel silly… amazing things can happen. I am going to make an even more conciliatory effort to think positively. Tell myself the positive mantra my twin told me to say, that moving to Seattle with my best friend and Sir will be amazing, and that everyday Sir and I will be able to have time to ourselves. We don’t schedule time for each other enough and we need to. Just try it for a week. Especially if you are having a crummy week to begin with. Change your thoughts and your mindset and find out how powerful they can be. You have to believe what you say though. Have faith!
Have a wonderful Thursday! The week is almost over.