This past week has been nothing short of amazing, truly words can not justify the experience Sir and I have had. I am thankful that we could go to Vegas and spend time with like minded people, who I can officially call friends.
When Sir and I first started back into this D/s-M lifestyle I was beyond thankful to find HusDom and SubMrs. I wanted this lifestyle so much and I felt my heart break when I wasn’t sure if I could ever get Sir to come around to it. When I found HusDom I read everything completely fascinated with the fact that there were others out there that wanted this life style but we’re married. Our issue before we had found HusDom and subMrs was that everything BDSM was for single people, nothing for the married couples. Things were extreme and felt as though everything was only skin deep. We needed and wanted something even deeper than that.
HusDom and subMrs showed us that we could still have the BDSM lifestyle while making it work for us not against us. When we signed up for each site I was overwhelmed with the support and positivity of the other married ladies, subbies, that were also living the life that I wanted. Helping each other with problems, answering questions, praising each other for progress. I was happy to find that Sir had other men, HusDoms, to talk to. Ones that were very much in love with their spouse and very firm on not sharing.
As with anything you find specific people you talk to more than others, although everyone is nice and very helpful. Some of these wonderful ladies I was able to meet in person this week in Vegas for the 3rd Warren Gathering. Some of which I connected to well within chat or txt I connected and bonded with in person, others I still love but are better with in chat or txt. None the less I loved meeting every single subbie and their Sir’s. I dread waiting an entire year for a chance to see them again!
As you have read in past posts I have some what of a dark past that bleeds into my present. Things I constantly deal with and pray go away. I have never been able to figure out how to let go… or maybe I just wasn’t ready to let go. Maybe I felt that I needed to remember all the horrid events to either preserve myself or because I felt that I didn’t deserve to be happy. I needed to remember everything, allow it to haunt me, torture me, consume me, because I let it all happen. Two ladies in particular helped me this week more than I think they will ever realize. I’m not even sure if I can explain to them enough what they did for me… and continue to do for me. I can only create something special for each to show my gratitude. I am learning… And ready to let go.
Meeting everyone, being around them, talking to them, has made our journey so much more real. It has inspired us to work harder and create some thing even more deep than I think we had originally realized. Each day was an inspiration, and the following day was more inspiring than the previous. Each day came with different experiences, and many tears shed… and even through a couple tifts here and there, there were no bad circumstances. Sir and I grew so much… there are still things we much work on… there will always be things to work on… though each one will be a growing experience. With the new wonderful family we are growing with, I know we can do better, be better.
To those of you out there that are married or in a long term relationship or know of people that are and want a safe place to talk and live out a “secret” life style you want deep down… Please, please, visit HusDom.com ( for Dominants) or subMrs.com ( for submissives). You won’t regret it! We’re here and you have a safe place to be yourself with out judgement! There are so many of us!